Archive - Melissa Mesku's handwritten notebooks

'New love and a cheap apartment on the Lower East Side'

Dec 4 2024 ☰ I was on the radio — a man who's just red flags in a trench coat — Balkan brass — leaving it to chance — fuck conventional wisdom, fuck…

Dec 14, 2024 •

November 2024

'Having money has re-written all my old laws'

Jun 14, 2010 ∞ What to do with all this cash — I feel just as unfree now as I did when I was broke — Were all my goals just velvet coffins keeping me…

Nov 19, 2024 •

October 2024

'She was a car on fire and a psychic smoker in a past life'

Oct 31, 2001 ☰ exchanging strange life stories — an early stab at creative nonfiction — halting, falling out of line with the group in order to cup hand…

Oct 31, 2024 •

September 2024

'Clearheaded rationality with a deep understanding of chaos'

Mar 20, 2009 ☰ Knut Hamsun's Mysteries — to allow myself to be constantly changed — the expansive mood of white hot talk

Sep 22, 2024 •

August 2024

'Hiding from my resentment because it would make me change my situation'

Jan 30, 2006 ☰ unfixable things — in trying to protect him I’ve killed myself — talking yourself into your duty — if I hide, it requires the whole…

Aug 25, 2024 •

July 2024

June 2024

'How long do you have to be somewhere for it to count as living there'

Oct 11, 2003 ☰ did I “move” to guatemala? how long do you have to live in a foreign place before you stop being a tourist?

Jun 30, 2024 •

March 2024

'Hey, this chick's whole written life is up here'

Feb 4, 2005 ☰ when "blogging" was new — the idea of handwriting for the internet — the kind of serendipity that makes you laugh out loud alone — my good…

Mar 31, 2024 •

February 2024

'I wanted the forest to swallow me up, absolve me of my modern suburban sins'

Jul 8, 2004 ☰ an illegally inhabited bomb-shelter of a place — zapatista woman painted on the wall looking down on us in the concrete night — the beauty…

Feb 18, 2024 •

January 2024

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